Demi Lovato to Celebrate 21st Birthday in Kenya – August 2013 Cosmopolitan Cover

demilovato-cosmo-062913Demi Lovato looks gorgeous on the August 2013 cover of Cosmopolitan magazine in an orange dress, a blue bra and her blonde locks.

The cover teases Demi’s interview with the subheadline, “Get ready…her shocking interview.” So just what does Demi talk about? Here are a few highlights.

On her 21st birthday: “It’s socially acceptable for people on their 21st birthday to just go out and get drunk.” Instead, Demi will be traveling to Kenya with her family and Free the Children. “I’m not gonna lie. It’s going to hurt a little bit. Sometimes I wake up and I’m like, why can’t I be normal? Why can’t I just…you know? But I can’t, so I don’t. I look at birthdays as celebrating another year of your life. You’ve made it another year, an entire year. Some people don’t make it to 21.”

On the kind of star she wants to be: “When I look at someone who’s out there partying excessively or rappers rapping about doing drugs, who people look up to, and think, Oh that’s a G; that’s a gangster. I think, You’re actually being a giant p****y. Sorry, but those rockers in the ’80s were the furthest thing from rock stars. They were so insecure and so lonely that they had to do these things to get them through the day. If you’re spending your entire early 20s chasing the next party, what are you running away from? That’s not a badass. What’s a badass is when you can sit through your problems and feel emotions when you don’t want to have them. There have been nights where I’ve had to sit on my hands, because I want to act out, because I physically can’t sit still in the pain I’m dealing with, from looking back and being bullied or other things that happened. And now, as hard as it may be, I will do that. That’s what makes me a badass. Being a badass is handling your s***.”

On her romantic life: “If I’m dating someone, you may see me out, but until I’m marriage-serious, I probably won’t walk the red carpet with anyone.”

On her friendships: “I totally allow myself to cry my eyes out, and I allow myself to open up to people and ask for help. I have two incredibly close amazing friends who are not celebrities, who wouldn’t mind hanging out with my family and my dogs. Those are the types of friends that I would have, rather than those who just want to use me. I had to learn the hard way.”

On her latest album Demi: “On the last album, I was still a little numb and wanting to stay positive and not tap into that pain or those emotional issues. On this album, I was able to release some stuff that had built up.”

On her past struggles with bulimia and cutting: “I’m not super religious, but I grew up Christian and I believe in God. When I’m in L.A., I don’t talk about it that much because people are very judgmental, but I just feel like God gave me a voice, not just to sing with. He put me through those things, which seemed horrible at the time, but they were so worth it. With the obstacles I’ve overcome, I can help people.”

On the lyrics from her song “Warrior” when she sings, “There’s a part of me I can’t get back/A little girl grew up too fast/All it took was once, I’ll never be the same/Now I’m taking back my life today”: “My family knows what it’s about. When I’m ready to open up that subject with the outside world, then I’ll be free to talk about it. But right now, it’s kind of one of those things where the lyrics speak for me. It’s all in the song.”

On her first gig at age seven on Barney & Friends and singing the theme song: “At the time, I was just so grateful to be on TV, but I was also really struggling. Looking back, there was a connection, probably between any kid who’s ever sang that song to Barney, a little place in a child’s heart, a void, that could be filled. And maybe Barney fills it. Even before Barney, I was suicidal. I was seven. With Barney, I guess subliminally, I did have a relationship with this figure that was saving my life in a way… I’ve talked about being bullied and the years of being a teenager, but I went through things when I was younger that I’ve never talked about that probably caused me to turn out the way I ended up turning out.”

For more of Demi’s interview, be sure to pick up the August issue.

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